Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6 (NIV)

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Care Package Received

Can't wait to hold this baby girl in my arms.
Can't wait until she hugs me back.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Laundry Question

Do you think washing her clothes now is too soon?  I guess I'm getting antsy.  For about 3 months now, Faith's clothes have sat on the toddler bed.  (Do clothes sit?)

I want to wash them.  I wonder if they'll get too much dust on them if we have a while yet until travel call.

I'm going to wash them today because it gives me a sort of closeness to her.

I can't wait until I can smell her, set my eyes upon her, touch her, and hear her.  I'm sure unfortunately at some point I'll even taste her sweat, tears, or snot.  If you've been a parent you know this happens accidentally from time to time. 

Oh, God, PLEASE, let her heart be healed when it is broken by me, when I take her from the only family she can remember.

God Bless!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

A Small Lesson in Perseverance

I am so blessed that I am working a job right now that I love.  When I first started working at the oncology clinic I told myself not to get attached.  How can you not get attached to the man who puts stickers on his chest to get a smile from his nurse (or worse yet rubber snakes and spiders)?  Or the lady that always thinks she must be dying, but her test results reveal that she is cancer free?  Or the 28 year-old that is faced with terminal cancer with the pink hair?   Or the lady who can smell the chemo drugs from the highway before they even turn the corner to come get her treatment?  Or the man with the son who on the outside looks so tough with all the tattoos and marks of a rough life, yet cares deeply and daily for his father?  This father passed away last weekend.  There was another woman with a big smile and a twinkle in her eye who we also lost last weekend. 

Another patient brought in her funeral program.  We shed a tear together.

I didn't do so well at the not getting attached part.  I have so much love and respect for these people.

So many patients full of life, that face the frailty of it to a larger degree than most other Americans on a daily basis. 

How can my heart be sad for my little situation when there are MANY worse predicaments in the world?

These patients teach me about perseverance and endurance.  Some come day after day for treatment, some week after week.  Some come year after year.  They fight for health and life. 

We are people who forget so easily that our health is a gift.  A gift like faith.  We don't fight for it until it's failing.

1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.   Hebrews 12:1-3

Therefore, I must persevere and wait humbly with joy.  For the day will come.  I will have FAITH.

God Bless!

Sunday, July 3, 2011

The Sound of a Tornado

I have never been in the direct path
of a tornado, but I've seen the destruction.

I wonder when thunderstorms come
if I'd know when to run if
the sound
of a tornado
was coming.

We live in a rural area,
so there'd be no WARNING.

I worry about the deceived people.

Because they might not know
the sound
when Jesus

You think the destruction
in the path
of a storm
is the worst,
but have you thought
of the destruction
that comes
to the
in Christ?

For then there will be great tribulation, such as has not been since the beginning of the world until this time, no, nor ever shall be. For false christs and false prophets will rise and show great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect.
—Matthew 24:21, 24 NKJV
For as lightning that comes from the east is visible even in the west, so will be the coming of the Son of Man.  Matthew 24:27 NIV

“Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.  Matthew 24:42-44  NIV